lonely......

How is it possible to be surrounded by people and still feel lonely? How can you have beautiful, loving children and still feel lonely? This is a hard question to a person living it.
I am a single mom. I have the greatest kids in the world. I count my blessings daily.  Yet, I crave the closeness of an adult. Someone to lay next to at night and tell about my day. Someone to laugh with and just be with.
I can't tell people that I'm lonely.  They look at me like I'm a horrible mother. But the truth is that I spend all of my time with my kids. I wouldn't trade that for the world. But once the kids are in bed, I crave adult companionship.
I remember when I had that. I was so happy. I thought that was what life was supposed to be like. I've given up hope for normalcy, however. To me, my normal is my kids. They make me happy. They make me smile. They give me a reason to live. But there is still that emptiness inside that feels like it will never be filled.
I refuse to allow it to consume me and I will not seek to fill it with empty relationships.  I believe that one day, I will find happiness. I will find my prince charming that wants to be with me. Until then, I will enjoy my time with my babies, who grow more and more every day. I will cherish every moment that I have with them and I will swallow the lump in my throat and fight on. Because what else can I do?