Happiness.....

For as long as I can remember, all I wanted was a family. I craved the closeness of a real family. I dreamt of my kids seeing me happy, in love, being the best mommy I could be and having a partner right there beside me through everything. The good, the bad, and the ugly.

I spent years putting my self through pain and heartache, in the wrong relationships, in a desperate attempt to have the American Dream. I learned a lot through the years. I learned the meaning of true lust. the meaning of true heartbreak, and most importantly, the meaning of true love.

Lust is temporary. If you're lucky, heartache can be temporary too. Unfortunately when you're in the middle of it, it seems like the pain will last forever. That you will never be complete again.  True love is forever.  It outlasts time and space. It even outlasts heartache. 

My husband and I separated in 2010. At the time, we were young. We had our children at a young age and we had no idea what we were doing. I look back now and it was like two kids trying to raise a family. In the years that followed, we had our share of disagreements, arguments, and plenty of drama. 

Today, my husband and I are back together. It's been five years since we last lived as a family. It's amazing to see how much we have each grown as people, parents, and a couple. Today, we cherish every moment spent with our children. They may not remember us together very well, but they definitely remember us apart. They glow when they see their daddy making mommy feel like a princess. When daddy comes home and takes the family on a bike ride, or gives piggy back rides through the house with a bouncing toddler on his back, these are the moments our kids will look back and remember forever. 

Today, we realize how precious time is. It's one thing that you can never get back. That conversation that your son or daughter wanted to have with you....in a few years, you'll be begging them to talk to you. Maybe it comes with age?  Maybe experience?  While we were apart we both saw what was out there. We played the field. Lived our lives, all the while knowing, deep in our hearts, that one day we would find our way back to each other.

It took me years to realize that the thing that I had prayed for, cried for, and begged for, was right there all along. 

Rich has always been my best friend. The one person who truly loves me, for ME. The only man that will treat our kids like they are the most important thing in the world, because they are. He is the love of my life. 

I'm blessed to have a second chance, with my best friend and and myluv, to make our dreams come true. 

I believe that we needed the time apart to grow. To realize that we had together....and I am so thankful to have this second chance to make our dreams come true. I am truly blessed ❤️❤️